but i sure do love Rob
8 October 2012
it has been 1 month, 2 weeks, and 4 days since i started dating an incredible guy. I honestly and truly love him. its unlike anything ive ever experienced. i love him fully.
curling up in bed with him is one of the best feelings in the world. just lying next to him, with my head on his chest, listening to his heart beat. rapid at first, and then as he begins to fall asleep it gets softer and slower until i fall sleep listening to it and feeling the heat of his body next to me. i could see myself sleeping like that forever.
he makes me happy
he makes me happier than ive ever been and its amazing to be happy again. he makes me laugh and cry and he holds me and protects me and keeps me safe.
he stayed over for black friday and just sleeping next to him in my bed where it was big and warm and i got to cuddle up with him and sleep with him
it was perfect
and he is perfect
I don’t think I hate myself anymore
Not as much
I’m committed to being happy now
I was so so so unhappy last year
And I’m really only realizing that now
I’m done with being unhappy
I’m beginning to like me more and more each day
“Are you anybody else’s missing piece?”
“Not that I know of.”
“Well, maybe you want to be your own piece?”
“I can be someone’s and still my own.”
— Shel Silverstein, The Missing Piece
Billy left our room
And switched rooms and my subscription to Corbin fisher died this has been a tough weekend